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Name: Katie
Birthday: 12/10/1987
Interests: Phish, Bob Marley, Hippie shops, The Ataris, Cold Weather, the tanning bed, Avril Lavigne, The beatles, The who, Blue's traveler, playing backyard football, Riding horses, trying on expensive clothes, Vintage T-shirts, Lip gloss, Anything vanilla, sappy love songs, singing with the radio, riding with my top down, soft skin, snuggling watching late night TV, Playing pretty pretty princess late at night, Writing poetry, Venting my thoughts through emo songs, staying up all night then sleeping all day, Rolling around in freshly dried laundry, my pup lucy, scary movies, UT football, Acoustic Sydicate, The grateful dead, Big Spring Jam, Michael Crihton books, Sewing and knitting, and of course i love boys!
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Member Since:
9/24/2003
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| I have a new Xanga site.... Lostongreystreet.... | | |
| Hm... been a few days... What has happened?! Not a dang thing....
Almost quit my job... for the 2nd time.... ha, they won't let me leave!!! ahh!!
Went to the show last night.... it was a lot of fun!!! Then we tried to go to dead children's playground but that didn't work out to well with the cop and all!! haha Oh well!
I am playing softball this year... so that should be fun!!! Got some new clothes... and i also got some new books!!! yay!!! Finally!!!!
Smack, Jay's journal, and Cut.... i'll let you know how they are....
So just sat... sipped some wine... jammed awhile... and all was at ease... and I swear... I almost felt infinite.....
Love,
Katie | | |
| Don't have mono! still sick though.... more blood work on Monday! Not cool!
need another good book to read...
POKER NIGHT!!! yay!!! good times!!!
where is my mark?! Where is he?!
Didnt get to go to Helen's.... am totally and completly morbid about the whole mess.... but oh well... life goes on doesn't it?? Yep... bright eyes... 26 days....
long day tomorrow....
Everything is a blur today... like I'm trapped in a bubble...
Weird!!
Sometimes you do stupid things and sometimes you do smart things...
But, if you know the smart choice and choose the stupid one because it's better in the moment... does it make it a smart choice after all??
Got my car system for my satellite radio and got the memory card for my camera.... and I got my car back from the shop... even got some school done... all in all... quite a productive day....
sometimes... when you think no one cares....life suprises you and puts people in your life to make it not so lonely and even if they don't really care... i don't mind if we all fake it for a while... Sometimes it's fun to play pretend....
and sometimes... it's just nice to cuddle!
Shadows are weird...
Sleeping In
Your chest rises and falls like the waves crashing at the moons whim.
The heartbeat is faintly heard as you rustle in the sheets.
Oh, if the sheets were only clouds, we could float away
Float away to somewhere eternal
Float away on heaven sent dreams all bound together
Dreams that I will always long to share with you
Might you ever love me?
I feel as though my heart may burst at any moment.
The dreams inside your head are as mysterious to me as the rising and the setting of the sun.
The mystery never to be revealed but the answers always searched for.
As you turn and toss my heart trips over itself as a calf learning to walk.
All I can do is watch you, and keep the streams of tears from rolling down my stained cheeks.
You seem so heavenly, breathing in, breathing out,
so peaceful, as a brook in a hidden forest, never to be disturbed.
Oh how the ringing of the clock comes all to soon,
stealing these precious times that are never to be forgotten.
Never to be forgotten, always cherished, always loved.
Love,
Katie
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| Sometimes I just wish i wasn't alone....
Sometimes I just wish someone cared....
Sometimes I just wish that I wasn't so unlovable....
Is that so much to wish for?
Love,
Katie
Another good book, now there's nothing to do except wait on no one to call.... | | |
| Ahh... sickness.... bloodwork.... find out wednesday if i too have the dreaded mono.... would not be good at all.... doctor said she would bet alot that i do by my symptoms but i'm holding out hope.... Ahh... I hate being sick.... but thank god for good books... satellite radio and HBO..... haha....
Cashmeres are scary little animals.... Mark is going to kill the one in my trunk and then we are going to take that money and finally go on our honey moon!!! yay!!!
Saw helen tonight!!! I miss her sooo much!!! Tension in the group.... ahhh the tension!! I dont know what to do but chill on the side.... till it all boils over! Oh well!!! Met courtney last night who is going to bright eyes with me and allex and chris.... she's cool... she likes ren and stimpy so that's cool.....
I need another good book to read....
Widespread panic is coming to atlanta... pray hard... and maybe the parentals will let me go....
Allex needs to go to bonnaroo with me!!!!!!!
Where has richard harper been all my life?!?!! I never see him.... John Butler trio is good!!!
And all in all.... sickness and everything.... I'm a little scared of myself lately.... I feel all emo.... like i read these books and I'm not only glad when they go through hard times but it makes me feel justified... and not alone... and like i'm escaping something...
Escaping something... I don't know what... but I need to escape... something isn't right inside.... and school starts.... only to add to the emptiness here... I don't know where it came from....
The new year so far has been.... nothing exciting... but is it ever?! it's just a new year of poop... of friends deserting friends for boys.... of people pretending to be something that they're not.... of me avoiding getting close to anyone.... another 12 months of not having a good friend.... just more time of nothing.... of passing the days by with jams bands.... screwed up relationships.... hypocritical friends.... and the occasional good book to let me escape the darkness.....
Wow... told you i was all emo....
I'm weak now from venting my soul... haha So i'm going back to the couch to wait on the AU game! War eagle.... but just for today....
"False Advertising"
On a string I was held. The way that I move, can you tell?
My actions are orchestrated from above. So I swing and I sway.
Wave my hand. Kick my leg. And it is always right with the music.
"Until all that swinging starts to make you sick"
For a song I was bought. Now I lie when I talk with a careful eye on the cue card.
Onto a stage, I was pushed with my sorrow well rehearsed.
So give me all your pity and your money. Now.
"We used to think that sound was something pure"
If I could act like this was my real life and not some cage where I've been placed,
then, I could tell you the truth like I used to and not be afraid of sounding fake.
Now all that anyone is listening for are the mistakes.
In a house, by myself, I hear the ice start to melt and watch rooftops weep for the sunlight.
And I know what must change. F*** my face. F*** my name.
They are brief and false advertisements for a soul I don't have.
Something true I have lacked and spent my whole life trying to make up for.
But I found in a song and in the people I love. They will lift me up out of darkness.
Now my door stands open. I am inviting everyone in. We will drink.
We will laugh until the morning comes. That is what we are going to do.
Love,
Katie | | |
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